Hello my fellow bloggers 8)
I feel like I haven't posted anything in such a long time! I've been really focused on making videos & uploading them on to YouTube that I've been neglecting my blog. NO BUENO! I should be posting more blogs up now that I don't have school & that it's Summer....oh & the fact that I don't have a job -_- Dang it! I need a job so bad it makes me want to cry. I want to be making that cashhh flowww, y'all know what I'm talkin' 'bout?! LOL. I'm a weird child. Totally need a job though, so after I post this up, I'm going to look on Craigslist & try to apply for a job. You see guys, when I want something I always lack motivation to do something about it. I have no idea why! It's like I lack a mindset whenever it comes to setting goals. Which is horrible! How will I ever fulfill my dreams if I don't do anything about it? I NEVER WILL...& that's exactly it! I need to do something with my life. I have this itch to explore the world, feel what it's like to live on my own & support myself, go on adventures, taste different foods, explore Maui even! I will do it. I WILL. No one will tell me otherwise. Even if I hurt myself or other people in the process (sad face inserted here), I need to do what I need to do so that I can fly on my own & become as independent as I possibly can!
Anyways, enough of that self-motivation speech blabber...does any one ever feel sad during the Summer? I most definitely do. I'm more of a Autumn & Winter lover. I feel like those two seasons are when I'm the most happiest. I get so depressed during Spring & Summer...I think I may have a tiny clue why, but I don't know exactly why I actually HATE (yes I know hate is a strong word) Summer with the strongest of passions. The two main reasons why I think I hate Summer is because one: it's when my dad left this life to be with God♥, & two: it's when I had my first ultimate heart break (it was al my fault though)...literally two events when my heart crushed into trillions of little pieces as if it were pounded on endlessly with a hammer, ran over by a tow truck, & hit with a bulldozer. Two main events that left me broken beyond repair. I mean, I'm healing & I'm doing MUCH better when those two events happened...but I still have chunks of my heart that will always be bruised & hurt. I think many people know what I'm talking about here. Many people have encountered these events, & all I can do is pray & hope...have faith that God will guide me in a path that leads to a happier life :) I have hope & faith. I'm so thankful & blessed for all that he has given me. I don't always understand the things that happen, but I know in my heart that God wouldn't let anything happen if there weren't better reasons lying behind them!
Any who, yeah that's pretty much why I hate Summer. Haha. So, yep! I guess that's all I have to say. I mean that was a lot. It was pretty deep & personal too. But that's okay...I guess :P Now you know a huge chunk of me. The dark side. But let's all smile & try to be positive today :D Let's all try to be nice & kind to those around us. Say, speak, & truly mean kind words to everyone!
Don't forget to check out my channel guys!
http://www.youtube.com/user/MinaIvyShow
If you like my blog, you'll most definitely love my channel I share with my besty!!!
Okay, bye bye everyone. Love you all so much!
- Mina ♡
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