Letting my imagination run FREE

For some incoherent strange reason, I feel the need to type. To type and just type like I've never typed before. Let my imagination run wild. Let my thoughts fly free through the wind. Like an eagle soaring through the air. I feel like discussing the randomest topics that could ever be thought of. Let's start with some of the things that I fancy. That satisfies my satisfactions. Yes, that sounds splendid now doesn't it?

I really love nail polish. For one, all the pretty colors of nail polish there are in this beautifully ugly world amazes the life out of me. You can express your feelings through the colors of your nails. I feel like even sometimes the way you present your nails can show what kind of person you are. Rugged jagged nails? Maybe you don't give two oomph's of what your appearance looks like. Neatly manicured nails? Maybe you're a perfectionist. Lots of cute designs on your nails? Ah, my friend, you indeed are an artistic human bean. Dark nails? Ooo, maybe you like to take a walk on the wild side. Etc, etc, etc. You get the picture. As for me, I can't stand chipped nail polish or jagged nails on myself. I love painting my nails, it's like a certain therapy for me. It relaxes me, calms me. It's just therapeutic I guess!

Now as for pictures. This one won't be too long. Short and simple. I love pictures, you get to capture a memory. Memories that will never be forgotten. Pictures are also artistic, they help you see the beauty in things. They're just amazing. One little picture but yet it can bring back so many emotions and memories. I love it.

Movies? Those are my absolute favorite. Call me a movie head, I don't care. I love movies. I spend tons of money watching all the new movies at the theaters. I like to spend money on buying DVDS. I mean my collection isn't as ginormous YET, but just wait. It will be when I'm a big person earning a good amount of pocket money. It's like escaping life, jumping into a fictional story. Picturing yourself as the main character, fighting off the bad guys, better yet, maybe you're one of the bad guys. Movies bring out certain emotions as well; fear, sadness, happiness, anger, excitement. It's so cool.

Ah okay friends, I've literally typed out all I could handle typing. I've let my imagination run free. Now it's time for me to get some sleep. I'm tired. I need to konk out, ASAP. But on the other hand, I hope you enjoyed reading into my mind. I had lots of fun transferring my thoughts to the tips of my fingers to this very keyboard to type the words you are seeing as of this exact moment. MIND BLOWING ISN'T IT? Nah, probably not. It's all good in the hood.

Okay, I gotta shut up now. Lol ;) Well...have an awesome day my loves. Stay beautiful!

These are a few my favorite things...

- Nail polish
- Eyeliner, or perfecting winged eyeliner
- Music from the golden days <3
- Lipstick
- Being clean
- Taking cold showers
- Nature
- Flowers & plants
- Sandals
- Dressing up
- Rings
- Being in the water
- Rain
- Fall & Winter
- Candles
- Norah Jones
- Christmas, Halloween, Thanksgiving (in order)
- Photography
- Quotes & poems
- Movies
- Books
- Pictures
- GOD, obviously
- Going on adventures
- Being happy
- Loving someone & being loved (hasn't happened in FOREVER, but whatever haha)
- Laughing
- Going to the movies
- Coffee shops
- Writing
- Art
- Furniture
- Making collages
- FOOOOD <3
- Making new friends
- Traveling
- Colorado
- Farms
- Doggies, I practically stalk them when I see one
- Babies ( don't want one till I'm ready for it though =] )
- Getting butterflies when I get a text/phone call from someone (hasn't happened in like forever, but it's nice to remember the feeling)
- SWEETS <3
- Cooking & baking
- Mystery/detective/CIA/fast driving shows & movies
- Magazines
- Being a hippie
- Polaroid pictures
- Handwritten letters
- Polite people

Okay, I think I'll stop here. As you can see from above, those are some of the things that I enjoy. When it comes down to it, I'm just an old soul at heart :) Simple things bring me joy & happiness. I don't need a mansion or tons of money to make me happy. Those things never last anyways. I just need good company with people who truly have good hearts to make me smile like I just saw Jesus! Hehe. Okay...I'm done typing now. I just wanted to post something. I hope you enjoyed reading this. I also hope you have/had a wonderful, AMAZING, fabulous day/night.

- Mina

I've come to realize....

From my title, I guess I will be talking about things that I've realized today. Things that I've kind of noticed before, but now they're really clear to me. No you know what? As a matter of fact, these "things" aren't even things anymore... They've become ISSUES. Yes I said it. Issues. Issues that are not good. Not even one ounce of good. But really, when has an issue ever been a good thing anyways? Never. I'm pretty sure of that.

SO. Two issues. Pretty cut and dry. Ain't hiding anything now. Shall I reveal these two wretched issues that I have? Yes I think I will. Right. Now.

1) I PMS a lot earlier then I should, and I absolutely HATE it. (Considering the fact that HATE is an extremely strong word, then you know that it's something that I need to change. Let's also consider the fact that I cap locked that b*tch, so yes I hate this issue)

I PMS like two weeks before I even get my period. Is that normal? No, I think not. I think it's all in my head, and that little thought in my head makes my body think that all this yucky junk food is good for me. NO. Cravings are bad. My appetite is HORRIBLE. I eat so much more often then I should because my brain makes me think that I'm hungry like an hour and a half after I eat. Another thing, my portions become huge. I eat way more food at a meal/snack. It's so annoying! I want to portion control what I eat! I also become extremely lazy when I PMS, so exercising to me seems like it's out of the question. And it shouldn't be!!! Next time I feel like I need a craving I'm not falling for it, I'm going to force myself to workout! I don't care if I have to manipulate myself into thinking that I need to workout or that these foods that I'm craving are poison... I will do it!!! I can't fall back into that place again, or else I will be infinitely unhappy!

2) When I PMS, alllll I want to do is eat junk food... Like chips, candy, sweets, chocolate... NAUGHTY FOOD.

And I usually fall into the trap, and I eat huge amounts. It's like I don't get full! Or when I do get full, I keep eating till I feel like sh*t because it tastes "good". Yeah, NO. I always feel sick and bloated. I end up feeling like absolute crap about myself. I can't do it anymore, it's not good for me. Even if I want ice cream, I can't do it. I can always make healthier alternatives. For example, a fruit smoothie... Or if I really want ice cream I'll drive my butt over to Whole Foods and I'll eat gelato. If I want chips, I can eat less junkier versions of chips... Like veggie chips, or something baked or organic. BETTER YET... Almonds! Pistachios, stuff like that... Nuts and seeds. If I want chocolate, I can get low calorie dark chocolate. Or a protein bar!!! There are so much healthier alternatives, I don't know why I force myself to fall for the crapppy ones. WHYYY?! Well it doesn't matter why, cuz no more!

The only good thing of falling off of the health train is catching yourself and learning that yes I'm human... Yes I will make mistakes. But what counts is that I can learn how to fix these mistakes (yes I'm kind of stealing this quote from Jenna's mamma from Thirteen Going On Thirty, LOL... Love that movie!)

Alrighty kiddos.... I'm done son. My arm hurts from typing... Idk why. Gonna watch some more videos now then shower, brush my teeth, floss... Etc. Hope you guys have a wonderful day/night.

Adios amigos!!!

- Mina

You don't realize what you have until it's gone

It's a true fact, for sure. You never know how much a person or something means to you until they're no longer in your life. NEVER, & I mean NEVER take advantage of the people you love! Take it from my experience, you'll be lucky enough if you ever get a second chance for treating someone like crap to be in your life again. So while they're still in your life; LOVE them. Make sure that they know you love them. RESPECT them! Treat them & speak to them with kind words...treat them the way that you would like them to treat you. You can'T just expect to have respect from someone if you don't give it to them in return. Support those that you love, support their passions, stick up for them, be there for them when they need a shoulder to cry on... Most importantly, learn to forgive those that you love. Just remember that nobody is perfect...NOBODY! Not even you. We all make mistakes. It's better to forgive someone for a careless mistake, then to hold on to anger that will harm us in the future. If that person forgave you once, then you can forgive also. It may not be easy, almost everything isn't easy... I believe in the end, it'll be much better for you.

Be thankful for your blessings, pray to God whenever you feel like giving up. I learned from all the moments that I was so low I didn't think I could ever possibly be happy again that God was listening to my prayers, wiping away my tears. Whatever you believe in, even if it's different from me...never give up on whatever faith you believe in. I like to believe that my God puts obstacles in my life so that whenever I have blessings, I'm not blind to them. I recognize my blessings & realize how lucky I am to have them...to not take advantage of them. So that I remember the happiness I feel, & how amazing happiness can be. You never know the true value of anything until it's gone. I was & still will be going through times in my life where all I feel is pain & all I can ever focus on is negativity... God will always be here for me, guiding me to brighter days. I know that he loves me & wouldn't let me go through any kind of pain if there weren't better reasons lying behind them. For that I am thankful. =) My God is an amazing God... & that makes me happier then anyone will ever know.

So what I'm trying to say is, RECOGNIZE WHO YOU ARE, WHAT YOU HAVE, & THE PEOPLE THAT BRING YOU HAPPINESS. Let them know that you love them, life is short...too short to be bitter & unhappy. All the seconds that you spend unhappy, are moments in your life that you'll never be able to get again!!! Including people! Anyone that you love in life is genuine & special, there is no one else in the world like them (or YOU) that exists...so don't take it for granted! You'll regret it....because I know I regret not letting the people that I loved know how special they were to me...& they are no longer in my life! I pray that one day we can regain our old friendships & rekindle the love that we all shared among each other... Anything is possible through God. Miracles do happen!

So never dwell...stay positive, stay happy. =) Always remember you have something to be thankful for!!!

Hoping and praying for a brighter day...

I've never felt like giving up so much on life until this single moment. I have been struggling with some hardcore depression this Summer. Everything is just hitting so hard all at once. I feel lonely, heart broken, I feel so alone. I've never felt as if I had anyone to confide in for such a long time. From this day on, I've been so alone. I have no one. I'm not really close to anyone in my family; my cousins who I am close to are in another country and the only one I am close to adult wise is my aunty who is in another state. I haven't talked to one my of closest friends in almost a week. I feel so hurt...I keep wanting to hold on to a string of hope or faith...because without my faith in God and without hope, I don't know if I'll be able to hang on any longer. It really seemed as if life was getting so much better, I thought that I was going to get a job, I thought that I'd be able to go to Colorado to visit my favorite aunt next month, me and my best friend were on good terms, things were getting a little better....but now, I feel as if I've hit rock bottom. Too many times do I feel the burden of sadness and despair over feeling happiness. I don't know how long I'll be able to handle this anymore. Everything that has ever meant anything to me is all gone.

I'm in shock. Never would have I ever thought that I'd ever be in this position. I honestly used to so full of life, happiness, everything good in life was all I ever focused on. I had friends, a father, even someone I loved...material things don't even matter to me anymore because I know that the happiness they bring only lasts so long. I would give everything to have the people that were once in my life back into my life again...ANYTHING. The loneliness I feel is unbearable. I honestly don't know when happiness will ever be within my reach again.

I thank God everyday for the blessings that I do have and I pray for better days. I pray that I will find happiness in my life, genuine people that will last as lifetime friends, that love me for me, that don't and won't use me just for their own advantage, to find a love that is true and everlasting with a man that has a nice sense of humor, and that has a kind heart. Happiness and peace within my whole family including myself, a long life with good health, and no financial hardship. That is what I pray for, and I know that God is full of miracles and surprises...I hope he blesses me with a miracle as soon as he can, because I need it more then anything right now.

I honestly believe that I would never physically harm myself, because I know the pain it can cause upon others, a lifetime of pain that just hurts too much to even think about. I know this from experience, and I miss that person with all my heart. Every particle in my body, I MISS YOU. I know you're in paradise with God, watching over me...guiding me. I know you and God will help guide me through this rocky path in life and lead me to better days, out of the darkness. Into a life where reality is finally better then my dreams, and the sun shines all day. After every storm comes a rainbow. I hope and pray with all of me, that my storm with run dry. That my happily ever after will occur and that I will never ever feel this low again in life.

OK...I think I'll end this post here. I had to vent, I just HAD to. I'm feeling a bit better, just a bit. But I know God is helping me right now along with my loved ones in Heaven. I apologize for this post not being all flowers and glitter, but I do have my days where I feel blue. This sadly happen to be one of them...Bye bye for now.

- Mina.

Some of the things I dig!

I absolutely love taking a shower. To me, it's just like therapy! I could be having an awful day, but if I have a good body wash that smells AMAZING, taking a shower can make my day 100 times better! The same thing goes with lotion. I love it too! Especially right after a refreshing shower. The more I smell good the higher my spirits are lifted! Another thing that puts me in an awesome mood? Working up a sweat. I LOVE IT! The pain I feel during a workout is so worth it when I know I worked out to my hardest potential, it feels like I climbed Mount Fuji! The best part about working out is that you get to release all the negative vibes you're feeling, all the anger & frustration. IT'S THE BEST! You also make your body a bit sexier & stronger too! & what's more attractive & uplifting then that? :)

Candles are cool beans too. I don't know what it is...something about scent that can ease my mind. I've also been loving healthy & natural grinds! REAL yummy, & they make you feel happy. Not fat or yucky...healthy = happy! I dig that...I dig that a lot. I've also been loving Norah Jones music wise. Her voice is so beautiful. I love music like that, music that have hidden messages behind them. I mean I love my meaningless, vulgar music too. But NOTHING & I mean NOTHING beats music like Norah Jones! Any music similar to the music that she sings brings me ultimate happiness! ♥

Last thing, NETFLIX! I know the website doesn't have all the awesome shows there are in this world...& that sucks more then a baby + a pacifier. There are some groovy doovy old school shows on there that I dig. Like Alias - yeah no surprise there. Or...LOST! I can't believe I've been missing out on that show for this long. Where has it been all my life? Don't forget Cheetah Girls, Clueless, The Babysitters Club...etc. YAH, dude...pretty amazing. I just figured out the majority after the first two shows from tonight out of pure coincidence & curiosity. Meep meep *Alien voice*...nail polish, lipstick, eyeliner, mascara...they all rock my socks! Love love love it all.

Okay kiddos, gonna head back to Netflix to watch some of those shows that I mentioned. Hope you're all having a wonderful Summer. LOVE Y'ALL.

Summer Blues!

Hello my fellow bloggers 8)

I feel like I haven't posted anything in such a long time! I've been really focused on making videos & uploading them on to YouTube that I've been neglecting my blog. NO BUENO! I should be posting more blogs up now that I don't have school & that it's Summer....oh & the fact that I don't have a job -_- Dang it! I need a job so bad it makes me want to cry. I want to be making that cashhh flowww, y'all know what I'm talkin' 'bout?! LOL. I'm a weird child. Totally need a job though, so after I post this up, I'm going to look on Craigslist & try to apply for a job. You see guys, when I want something I always lack motivation to do something about it. I have no idea why! It's like I lack a mindset whenever it comes to setting goals. Which is horrible! How will I ever fulfill my dreams if I don't do anything about it? I NEVER WILL...& that's exactly it! I need to do something with my life. I have this itch to explore the world, feel what it's like to live on my own & support myself, go on adventures, taste different foods, explore Maui even! I will do it. I WILL. No one will tell me otherwise. Even if I hurt myself or other people in the process (sad face inserted here), I need to do what I need to do so that I can fly on my own & become as independent as I possibly can!

Anyways, enough of that self-motivation speech blabber...does any one ever feel sad during the Summer? I most definitely do. I'm more of a Autumn & Winter lover. I feel like those two seasons are when I'm the most happiest. I get so depressed during Spring & Summer...I think I may have a tiny clue why, but I don't know exactly why I actually HATE (yes I know hate is a strong word) Summer with the strongest of passions. The two main reasons why I think I hate Summer is because one: it's when my dad left this life to be with God♥, & two: it's when I had my first ultimate heart break (it was al my fault though)...literally two events when my heart crushed into trillions of little pieces as if it were pounded on endlessly with a hammer, ran over by a tow truck, & hit with a bulldozer. Two main events that left me broken beyond repair. I mean, I'm healing & I'm doing MUCH better when those two events happened...but I still have chunks of my heart that will always be bruised & hurt. I think many people know what I'm talking about here. Many people have encountered these events, & all I can do is pray & hope...have faith that God will guide me in a path that leads to a happier life :) I have hope & faith. I'm so thankful & blessed for all that he has given me. I don't always understand the things that happen, but I know in my heart that God wouldn't let anything happen if there weren't better reasons lying behind them!

Any who, yeah that's pretty much why I hate Summer. Haha. So, yep! I guess that's all I have to say. I mean that was a lot. It was pretty deep & personal too. But that's okay...I guess :P Now you know a huge chunk of me. The dark side. But let's all smile & try to be positive today :D Let's all try to be nice & kind to those around us. Say, speak, & truly mean kind words to everyone!

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Okay, bye bye everyone. Love you all so much!

- Mina ♡

I'm graduating...GRADUATION is TODAY! Woohoo, C/O 2013!!!

Hello my loves! I have NOT posted in a very long time & I apologize for that. I've been very busy getting all that werkkk done & practicing for graduation the last past couple of weeks! :))) Now the day is FINALLY here...as much as I've been waiting for this day since my Sophomore year, I kind of just want time to slow down now. I know I rag on hating school & everyone so much, but it's not true. It's a bittersweet moment. This will probably be the last time I'll ever see my classmates ALL together. I may not be close with the whole class but it's crazy how we've seen each other mature & grow up. We've started as the bebehs of the school from 13-14 years old & now we're about 17-18. CRAZY. Started from little teens to adults. IT'S NUTS!

I've made so much mistakes and a handful of regrets, where I wish I could have done stuff...but what's done is DONE...exactly that, & now is not the time to be upset with that! I'm just filled with so many emotions I can't even begin to comprehend half of them. I'm: excited, nervous, kind of sad, mostly nervous...FOR MY HEELS, that I wish I'd practiced in...but I'm a HUGE dummie :( Lol, praying that I don't fall.

God has blessed me & my class in many ways...ways that I can't even describe. I'm so thankful for each blessing that he has poured upon me. Even when I was my loneliest he was there with me the most guiding me each step of the way. Never leaving me behind...always holding my hand :) ♡ & now, he'll be with me tonight...him & my daddy both with me...ALL for you daddy, I hope you're proud. It makes me so sad knowing that you're not here with me in person to be with on one of my most happiest/proudest days so far, but I know you'll ALWAYS be with me in spirit. That's all that counts. I hope you're almost as happy as I am!!! I love you ❤

Okay well that is it guys, wish me luck...& if you're a BELIEVER like I am, pray for me too! :) I need all of the prayers that I can get...HEHEHE...Eeeep! Next time I post a blog, I'll be a graduate! YAY, C/O 2013!!! We did it guys!!!

Bye bye my loves!!!
XOXO.

Got me so delirious...

Hello lovers! I just wanted to make a quick little post. I don't have the slightest idea of what I want to post right now, my mind is completely scatterbrained so I don't know what to do with all these crazy thoughts running through my mind. First thing first...I want to start writing more. I know I have a blog, so I can type whatever my little heart desires but there's nothing like settling down with a glass of lemonade & a journal. My heart set out to write whatever my hand feels like writing on a fresh page of paper with some colored ink. & maybe even fluorescent colored highlighters. But shush, it's a secret ;) I would even like to start reading more. I haven't read a book regularly in such a long time! I've been reading this one book & it's taking me decades, almost a whole century to read it. NO BUENO.

Same excuse every single time, I always say "next time. I'm busy right now. I'll just start later on..." Mmm, yeah no. Not a very good idea, because I'm the type of loser dork that likes to prolong things. I need to have motivation, inspiration. I want to start thinking happier thoughts, I want to do things that make me happy, I want to be creative like how I used to be, I want to bake, I want to cook, I want to be productive. I know I'm not like all the other girls on this island (NOT a cocky statement, believe me). I'm not into getting wasted, smoking, getting high, popularity, trying to get with any guy who notices me....psh, I have standards man! Lol. I'm random, I'm weird, I'm loud, I'm goofy, I'm a child at heart. If you truly know me & you are or were my friend, you know I'm weird! You know I'm random. YOU KNOW I LIKE TO CRACK UP JOKES, MAKE AN EFFORT TO BE FUNNY & MAKE PEOPLE LAUGH. I like that! I love laughing. Laughter is one of the best remedies out there. I love being happy, being careless, laughing my heart out. That's what I consider fun! Not getting drunk with a bunch of stranger fools. No offense. Getting drunk off Skinny Girl Margaritas can be fun too! Hehe ;)

Man! So much things I would just love to do, so many passions I would love to pursue, I'm inspired to do so much things that I can't even think of all of them at once. So much that, in fact, I can't even type them all because this post would never end (pretty much). So I guess I'll end this here. I know this post is SUPER RANDOM, like what?! I swear, when I start typing something I never know where my posts are going to take me! It's like a spontaneous journey, but through my mind, my fingers, this keyboard & the internet. Dang, technology these days...never slows down for anyone huh?

Okay lovers, I am ending this now!!! FOR REAL THIS TIME....
I love you guys ♥♥♥

Finding my bliss once again :)

Hello my loves! Mina here. I hope I didn't scare anyone off with my last post, I'd like to apologize. I was just completely stressed & I needed a good vent session. Furious texting to my best friend just wasn't quite enough to completely blow off all the steam so I turned to blogging. I think it helped quite well. But now I feel much better! I've gotten some stressful things over with, I still have a lot more to do but I have faith in myself & in God that I'll get everything done :) I believe in myself! I'm so close to one of my lifelong dreams I can taste it!

Now as of this moment, I'm having this lazy love relationship since it's Saturday & the past week has just worn me out! Dang :o But I just had a very yummy breakfast; multigrain waffles, an egg & a smoothie. I've recently learned in one of my Human Phys classes that healthy fat is better for you then a low fat diet. You feel full longer, so you consume less calories throughout the day. Good fats are in butter (but make sure you eat in rations, don't overdo it!), nuts, olive oil, stuff like that. Grains are also good for you, so I made sure not to be too naughty & I ate a multigrain waffle instead of a regular one. Also, when eating eggs, the yolk is where all the good stuff are, so don't throw it away! Eat them with your egg whites! I lie to you not! My teachers know what they're saying, they have degrees people! Haha. I've really missed juicing (btw, I have no clue as to why I call it juicing, when they're actually smoothies...habit I guess, but oh well! Hehe) so I made a yummy smoothie! I put about a handful of berries, half an apple, half of a banana, half an orange, and half a handful of peeled baby carrots & voila! YUMMERS ;) I don't have any spinach or cucumbers right now soooo *sadface* I wasn't able to include that in. Now I'm just listening to country music :) I love country music! So relaxing & beautiful. I do listen to rap, hip hop, stuff like that...but sometimes I like to step away from songs about sex (ummm RAY J, yeah, I don't listen to him, but get over Kim dude!) & I like to listen to songs that have meaning & tell a story :)

Plans for today! Hang out with my best friend, yeppers! I really want to VLOG because I have't put up a video in ages! Yikes. I want to go to the church & light a couple of candles at the chapel. Pick lunch up at TJs with the ticket I bought, & who knows what else. Go to Wal Mart & grocery shopping with my mama & maybe eat out dinner with my family, then sleepover my friend's house (we'll see).

I've been really crazy lately with my mood swings & I really would like to change that. Maybe being nicer & happier! I need to look at the positive things in life! Life really is beautiful if you look at the glass being half full rather then half empty :) I need to stop wanting more & just appreciate the things I do have. I mean, it's true when people say you don't realize what you have till it's gone. I've learned that the hard way. Never take anything or ANYONE for granted...EVER. Life is too short! Let go of the negativity, stop hating those who did you wrong & just forgive! Don't even do it for the other person, do it for yourself. The only way you'll ever be free, is if you let go. It is a slow process to heal from the scars others have left you with, but it's better to forgive then to live life in darkness. I know this, I'm still healing, trying to forgive myself from the pain I've inflicted on others, on myself, & the pain others have inflicted on me as well. We're all human, EVERYONE makes mistakes. No one is perfect. Perfection will never exist, NEVER. We all have our faults, they're inevitable.

Love yourself, love those around you. Forgive those who hurt you & leave those who are hurting you. Live for yourself & live life in love & happiness. It's so much easier to be happy then to hurt all the time :( Don't think everyone in the world is against you! If any of you ever feel like you need someone to talk to, I'm here! You guys can talk to be :) Don't ever be ashamed! I care & who knows, maybe I need someone to talk to as well. You all matter!!! Each & every one of you.

Ahh ok kiddos! I should stop now, I could probably go on FOOOREVER. But "eh, better not"....LOL :) I hope you enjoyed this post my loves. I love you all!!! XOXO.

So stressed out!

I just would like to warn you in advance that this isn't going to be a very upbeat post, in fact I believe that it's going to be the exact opposite...

I'm just so sick of all the crap that high school is giving me right now. I'm in such an unhappy place right now with one of my classes that I feel like it's becoming the main source of my unhappiness. It's not only affecting me, but others around me as well. I really enjoyed this class my Junior year, but I just want to be done with it. I'm mentally and emotionally drained. I can't wait to get out of high school. I know some people really enjoy high school, but I can honestly say it was four years of BULLSH*T. Four years of anger and resentment that I invested into my life that I can never have back. It just comes to show, that as you most likely know already, that I'm not perfect or happy all the time. I have my days, and right now is one of them. I just HATE, and I mean hate this one class right now. I feel like I'm being forced to do irrelevant things that will never benefit my future.

I just don't even know how to deal with the stress right now. I'm just so frustrated and angry beyond words. I can't even begin to explain how irritated I am right now with everything. Can someone burst from being so P*SSED? Because I think sh*t is gonna go haywire. FEK. I'm so over everything.

Health is wealth baby!

Well, I know this is going to be such a random introduction to a blog post, but JUNK FOOD. I can honestly say it's a love-hate relationship with me. As much as I HATE junk food with every single particle of my soul, it always seems to find a way to tempt itself back into my life. I mean sure it tastes good, but it makes me feel soooo sick. Headaches, lazy, tired, grumpy...you name it! Anything negative, that's what it does to me and my body. It's like a crack addict and their crack. As much as it destroys them, they will always have that temptation. MUST I REPEAT AGAIN; I hate junk food. HATE IT.

I love healthy food, or eating better. Not only does it make you look good but it makes you feel good as well :) Everyone needs some well-being in their life. It also makes you want to workout. It brings positive vibes. That's why I love it! Also due to the known fact that cancer runs deep in my family's genes, I want to start being healthy again as soon as possible. Starting now! These past couple of days, I've been naughty but I honestly want to get back on track again. Just because you get off track doesn't necessarily mean you have to give up, you can always start again! Never think about how much further you have to go, look back and see how far you have come! Be motivated, be your own motivation. It's A LOT harder to feel like crap and hate how your body looks like/feels like then it is to not only eat yummy food that is good for you and makes you feel good, but to also work up a sweat that can be fun and shows positive results!

FROM THIS MOMENT, I will start listening to my own advice. I'm no longer doing this for anyone but myself. I also would like to blog about this to not only vent out my feelings that I keep in, but to motivate others also! (hopefully, hehe)

Alrighty...well, I hope you all enjoyed this post! I'll be posting again soon, that's for sure. I'll also be posting more videos on my YouTube channel so look out for that. I love you guys!!!

Xo,
Mina

Hey hey!

Hello there! I feel like I haven't blogged in forever...but I just had this random urge to start typing, so here I am :)

This is going to be a short one, because well....I don't really have much to say or to update anyone who cares! Haha. Really though, I've been such a lazy a$$ this whole week since I've started Spring Break & I haaaaate it! I hate being lazy & unproductive. Yes I said hate & yes I know that hate is a strong word, but I really do hate it. I mean life is so short, wasting my life away doing nothing bugs the heck out of me...but really though, sometimes there's nothing you can do about it.

MERPPP. Okay, I think I ought to stop here...I just got in a bad mood out of nowhere & I don't want to spread any negative vibes =( Anywho, I hope you guys are all having a fun & relaxing Spring Break!

XOXO.

WHOA THERE, whoaaa there!

Hey folks! Mina Bopeena here! :) I feel like I haven't typed out a post in such a long time. So much has been going on, & I've been overwhelmed with school, work, stress...but all of that has been (almost) put to a halt. *Well, I'm praying to God anyways, that it has* Because it is....*drum rollll please* SPRING BREAK BABY! Well, it will be anyways. Starting tomorrow at 2:00 p.m. I'm so excited, you have no idea! I can't wait. School has been stressing me inside & out, emotionally & physically that I've turned myself into a complete mess. Or maybe even zombie ;) So much of a zombie that I haven't even posted or edited a video in over a week. What?! Yeah, seriously. & I haven't even vlogged properly. I've been vlogging a bit here & there, but it's not even what it's supposed to be....if that even makes any sense? Honestly though, the break I've taken from editing videos, vlogging, & filming has been such a breath of fresh air. (Whatever okay, it makes sense to me =P) It is NOT easy, not one bit. It can also be really tiring, but yet it's loads of fun!

Okay, let's start on a fresh new paragraph. I'm ready to start vlogging & putting up videos again though! =] Yay, super duper exciting. I can not wait. Hehe. Okay, well I guess this is all I can say. I've got to get that boiling egg out of the pot & put it in my kimchee noodles...mmm, yummy dinner aye! & maybe a pandesal for dessert with peanut butter or something. Oh! & you can NOT forget the vinegar shots. I've also got to plug this laptop in & charge it while I'm eating dinner, because it's already on 4%. Theennnnn, I'll continue watching the movie I started, "The Sum of All Fears" on Netflix. Oh! & peeps, if you haven't watched Alias yet or Law & Order SVU, you must watched them on Netflix, loving them!!! Hehe. Then I must do some homework hopefully, paint my nails, shower, drink tea (maybe)...oh who knows, that's not in the right order. Okay! That's it. I've got to go, I'll check this for any mistakes later.

Love y'all!!! XOXO.
- Mina ♥

New VLOG Channel

Hellloooo my loves! I feel like I haven't made a post in such an oh so very long time. But this is will be a short post. I just wanted to say hello & whatsssuppp?!

Haha, wow...how "Myspace" does that sound? ANYWHO, me & my BESTY (lol) have a VLOG channel now on YouTube!!! Watch us at: www.youtube.com/minaivyshow

It'll be awesome!!! We'll have about 2-3 videos per week AT THE LEAST. So yep. I'm also thinking about making a channel for myself to film hauls/TAGS/tutorials...stuff like that!

Okay, sorry this is such a short video. My creativeness is not at a high right now so I don't have much to say. But yeah...check out my channel if you're interested =] I promise I'll make a blog post soon though, sometime before this week ends. OK my loves, I love you all very much!!!

XOXO,
Mina <3

Half Baked...WHAAAT?!

Hello my lovie dovies! Mina here. I just wanted to make a quick post about random bib n bobs! First thing first, I would like to make a confession. I love ice cream. Too much! Or I have been wanting ice cream more then usual these past couple of weeks, but I have been trying to contain myself. I don't know what it is about chips & ice cream with brownies but I've just been wanting it like crazy! But this is the last straw, today I had "Half Baked" ice cream from Ben & Jerrys...not gonna lie, it was delicious. Chocolate & vanilla ice cream with "GLOBS" of brownies and cookie dough. SO YUM! But oh so bad at the same time. Really though, today is the last day. I desperately have been missing my healthy food, fruits, veggies, fish...raw food. Yummy & good for the heart =]

Well, that's it for food. I can't even type about food anymore, it's such a huge love of mines...but I'm so full from that darn ice cream I don't even want to think of food. YECK. Let's talk about something else shall we? School...NO. Too stressful. I'll probably put a post up about school once some of the stress passes by, but as for now....I don't even want to think about it! =[ Yep, wimp! & I honestly couldn't give a llama's butt.

Hmmm....what else can I talk about? Ooo, SLEEP & rain. The best combo EVER. Especially with soup...or even better, CANDLES. Ah! It's love. I love rain, oh so very much. It's cozy weather, & cozy weather is the BEST weather. Especially if you have a lover, but I don't...honestly, doesn't matter to me! I don't have one for a reason & when the time comes...it will! I am putting my everything in GOD'S hands <3 that's thee way it should be. YUP YUP.

I love sun too though. Awesome Vitamin D...wonderful beach days. I love the beach!!! I haven't been in such a LOOONG time though because of babysitting & other stuff...I honestly miss it. I just love nature in general though. I love the mountains, grass, trees, plants, flowers...all the natural stuff, I'm all for it bebeh!

Okay, I'm done yappin' about senseless stufff. I just wanted to type & make a quick post! I hope you guys had the best of the best ALOHA FRIDAYS!!! ♥ Have a fabulous weekend; lots of FUN, LOVE, relaxation, & whatever else floats your boat.

XOXO,
Mina Pooooh =P

Doo-da-doo Life's Good!

Does anybody else remember watching Miley & Mandy shows on YouTube? If so, then you most likely remember "doo-da-doo life's good".  Honestly, I remember like it was just yesterday...14 years old, watching that video & thinking how genius that quote was. Fast forward to about almost 4 years later, I just watched that same video & I still believe that quote it almost as genius as it is today if not MORE then it was back then.

Just thinking about the words can put a smile on your face =] No matter how silly it sounds, it's just so silly & fun. Saying it out loud is even better. You know why? Because it's absolutely true! Despite all the hardships there are or crappy moments life throws at us, life is good. Just looking on the brighter side of things, thinking of the glass half full rather than half empty broadens my view on whether to stay optimistic or pessimistic. Yeah, life gets hard...& what? Should I let this bring me down? NO. I myself have been through situations where someone should NEVER have to experience, especially at the age I went through it, being so young...till this day I still don't understand why half the stuff that I went through happened, but I honestly believe God put them in my life for a reason. I admit, I may not be the strongest person at times...I have my weak moments, but it doesn't entirely mean I'm weak.

I believe that with faith, somewhere deep down...there can be happiness within. Hidden beneath all the sorrow, anger, sadness, hurt. There is happiness waiting to be found. & when it has been found, it will radiate in all the best ways possible =]

Life will never be perfect or the way that we expect it/plan it out to be. There will be curveballs, mistakes, wrong choices that will be made, but in the end I think that if we stick it out...it'll be worth it! ❤

Alrighty, I ought to stop here now shouldn't I? It's almost 11:30 PM & I need to get my butt in the shower & go to sleep. I hope you all have a great day/night. You all deserve it.

Happiness, peace, faith, & love...we need it. We deserve it. Oh & one thing to remember: DOO-DA-DOO LIFE'S GOOD!!!

I love you alllll. XOXO.

NEVER Give up!

Hey guys! I haven't posted in a couple of days, so I just wanted to make a short post here about strength. I know it's a cliche topic but hear me out....

I believe that strength comes in many shapes & forms. Whether it be mentally, emotionally, physically...it's there within us. Every obstacle that we've overcame in life has proven to us that we are strong. It may not seem like it during our hardest moments in life, but we are strong. No matter what ANYONE says. All the negative opinions? Throw it out. It's trash. Negativity doesn't belong in our lives. The people who think we CAN'T do not belong in our lives. We must allow only positivity to fill our lives. Those who BELIEVE WE can, who KNOW we can are the only people that we need. The ones we love, & who truly love us back...they're the type of people who are keepers.

Never give up on yourself, on what you believe, your faith, your goals...it won't benefit you, or anyone if you give up. Don't think you CAN'T because you CAN! =] The only thing that's keeping you from reaching and achieving your goals is that little voice that's telling you to stop whenever the going gets tough. But you know what? Nothing is impossible, ANYTHING is possible as long as you keep going. Once you do reach your goal, I promise you it will be one of the best feelings you could ever feel.& you won't regret it.

One of my favorite quotes are: "The number one reason why people give up so fast is because they tend to look at how far they still have to go, instead of how far they have gotten."

Before you quit, think about why you started in the first place. Remember that reason & hold it close.♥

ALRIGHTY KIDDOS, time to get some beauty sleep clocked in...or "beast" sleep as I like it to call it (starting right now, because I just thought of it a couple of seconds ago, LOL). I hope you all have a wonderful day/night. Tomorrow...well on paradise time, TODAY is Valentines Day. Not too sure how I feel about this holiday considering the fact that I've never had a "true" Valentine. Yup, it's true. & I really don't think I mind....OK, enough chit chat, click clack. Adios my luvers!

Midnight Delirium

Hey guys! I think I finally got the hang of this blogging thing...well kind of. I don't have much to share right now actually. I just had this strong urge to type something. As of this exact moment, it is 12:46 AM & I'm watching ANT FARM (Disney channel of course), pretty much procrastinating on sleep & taking a shower. Don't take me wrong...I love showers & sleep more then almost any verb in the world, but I'm just being a lazy ladybug. No big deal. SIIIKE. Who am I kidding? What's even worse is that I have to babysit tomorrow at 7:10 AM. What is sleep anyways my friends? I'm absolutely dreading tomorrow! I mean I love the kiddies, I guess it wouldn't be too bad if I could sleep in.

Why am I such a nice person? Haha. If I didn't need the money, I most definitely would NOT be babysitting. I kind of miss staying home & being a bum...well, sorta. It depends. If I only had to babysit every other week it'd probably be perfection. Although, I'd be broke. Hm...yeah, see how I go completely off topic & rant about something random? I'm just a random rock like that. & I love it. LOVE IT. Whoop whoop =] I need a real job!!!

& on another note...hunnnie, why do you have to be so beautiful? Beautiful soul, inside & out!!! Ehhh...MEN. What are we gonna do bout 'em? Can't live with them, can't live without them.

Goodness gracious, this is getting to be a litto TOO fun for me. I better quit it, I'm starting to talk bubbles. 17 year old turning 18 in less then a month *hint hint* going BONKERSSS over here. Jesus help me ♥

TATA, speak to you soon my lovers!